damaclese

I'm siting here having a bad day maybe even a bad year its been tough i don't mean to wine iv been grumpy of late and i hope that hasn't come out in my post to you all so if iv offended any one please understand its not personal

although i may not express it to each and every one of you i really cherish the things you all share here even if i don't always tell you so

why is it that i always get so down in the colder months its really not the holidays I'm not that in to them in the first place having no kids its hard to relate to Christmas and all that stuff

having been semi layed off idled back to 12 hr a week makes for a lot of alone time not good on top of my annual bad mood LOL

i know I'm not the only person thats been affect by the economy and i sure do have it good in comparison to many people in the US

I'm grateful that God has given me so much it could be weirs
but and i have to be honest i just don't feel vary lucky thees days

i cant even garden which has always been my therapy so iv been bloging allot
thats brought up its own unique set of issues as I'm extraordinarily liberal and emotional to boot so thats another source of irritation i rarely feel that people get what I'm saying

any way i know this is a garden forum but i feel so close to many of you that i know you will understand why i chose this place to post this as there are many other groups i belong to and are probably more appropriate to this kind of thread but i just feel comfortable here

I'm not asking for your sympathies i just needed to say what i had to say to the world

and know that i am here for you all if you ever feel the need to get something of your chest even if its not garden related

thanks for taking the time to read this
Paulo

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