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Originally Posted by damaclese
I'm siting here having a bad day maybe even a bad year its been tough i don't mean to wine iv been grumpy of late and i hope that hasn't come out in my post to you all so if iv offended any one please understand its not personal
although i may not express it to each and every one of you i really cherish the things you all share here even if i don't always tell you so
why is it that i always get so down in the colder months its really not the holidays I'm not that in to them in the first place having no kids its hard to relate to Christmas and all that stuff
having been semi layed off idled back to 12 hr a week makes for a lot of alone time not good on top of my annual bad mood LOL
i know I'm not the only person thats been affect by the economy and i sure do have it good in comparison to many people in the US
I'm grateful that God has given me so much it could be weirs
but and i have to be honest i just don't feel vary lucky thees days
i cant even garden which has always been my therapy so iv been bloging allot
thats brought up its own unique set of issues as I'm extraordinarily liberal and emotional to boot so thats another source of irritation i rarely feel that people get what I'm saying
any way i know this is a garden forum but i feel so close to many of you that i know you will understand why i chose this place to post this as there are many other groups i belong to and are probably more appropriate to this kind of thread but i just feel comfortable here
I'm not asking for your sympathies i just needed to say what i had to say to the world
and know that i am here for you all if you ever feel the need to get something of your chest even if its not garden related
thanks for taking the time to read this
Paulo
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Reading this, a saying comes to mind, something about a person feeling bad or sorry for themselves because they had no shoes until they saw someone who had no feet.
Sometimes it's hard to put things in perspective.
Consider my days these past few days:
1) Friday morning after thanksgiving. Early morning notification call from Medical Examiner ex-husband's death.
2) Saturday night: discovering serious questions about professional conduct of emergency responders--in other words, this death may not have occurred if he had received prompt and appropriate attention
3) Sunday: agonizing what to do, notify deceased's sibling from out of state
4) Monday: pursue investigation (file complaint, request full autopsy , confer with deceased's sibling
5) Tuesday: another trip/call to ME office, figure out logistics and details for mortuary, burial, other services
6), 7), 8), 9), 10)
The deceased had the total sum of $1205 in savings to defray any and all costs.
One son recently returned from Iraq, working as security in NY hotel; one son displaced by this downward economy since February--savings expended.
Add in the emotions and dysfunctions wrought on the family, stir, and watch out for flying fur .
When it rains, it pours.
Someone, somewhere in a place not far away from you, a person is going through something that makes the last few days of my life seem like a walk in the park.
Buck up, be strong 'cause only the strong survives.