damaclese

I'm siting here having a bad day maybe even a bad year its been tough i don't mean to wine iv been grumpy of late and i hope that hasn't come out in my post to you all so if iv offended any one please understand its not personal

although i may not express it to each and every one of you i really cherish the things you all share here even if i don't always tell you so

why is it that i always get so down in the colder months its really not the holidays I'm not that in to them in the first place having no kids its hard to relate to Christmas and all that stuff

having been semi layed off idled back to 12 hr a week makes for a lot of alone time not good on top of my annual bad mood LOL

i know I'm not the only person thats been affect by the economy and i sure do have it good in comparison to many people in the US

I'm grateful that God has given me so much it could be weirs
but and i have to be honest i just don't feel vary lucky thees days

i cant even garden which has always been my therapy so iv been bloging allot
thats brought up its own unique set of issues as I'm extraordinarily liberal and emotional to boot so thats another source of irritation i rarely feel that people get what I'm saying

any way i know this is a garden forum but i feel so close to many of you that i know you will understand why i chose this place to post this as there are many other groups i belong to and are probably more appropriate to this kind of thread but i just feel comfortable here

I'm not asking for your sympathies i just needed to say what i had to say to the world

and know that i am here for you all if you ever feel the need to get something of your chest even if its not garden related

thanks for taking the time to read this
Paulo

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That's a bad combination in many situations. Don't worry Paulo, life's not about jobs, money or stuff like that. Just make sure you put your new free time to good use.
GFriend, wife, kids, friends, parents, family...

You will feel much better once you are with those your heart desires to be with...

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In response to the post.Thats ok we all need to get stuff out once in awile. Your post made me grateful. We sometimes take for granted the things we have untill we donot have them. I hope it gets better for you. Im here if you ever need someone to talk to. I donot have kids myself. I work full time and take care of my elderly mom after I get off work. I sometimes get in the poor me's,but than I get grateful. Im happy I can take care of mom and I have a job.And gardening is my theropy.

I had a freind who was also my ex boss we were real close like brothers he crossed over two years ago a trailer fell on him and took him instantly. Its been very hard for me around the holidays I tented to dwell on all the people that have crossed over in the past waisting allot of energy. And forgetting all the ones I have here around me I have to say I had a good holiday this year. Me and my blood brother are real close now I have my sister and mom she is the greatest !!!!!! I have my nephew my neases and my sisterinlaw. And my animals and my garden which is my life line. And all you guys.
I have allot of material things which I find is not that important yes there good to have and im grateful for them but Im finding out that the things in life are the things around you the simple things.
If you cannot post here and talk as a person than what is this place worth ? Thanks for posting

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Dalmatiansoap

This is what I like the most at .org .
Friendly spirit and lot of good peoples hanging here willing to help each other about almost everything and to every one.
I had many dicussions about that earlyer, shoud .org be forum for strictly banana talks or we have to include this social part in it.
Now Im happy to see how are things developing

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damaclese

thank you for the support I'm sure with the turning of the seasons i will find my way again one good thing about getting older is the sure knowledge that things always change

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Hang in there, Pauley. This can be a difficult time of year for some folks, but you've got a lot of friends here, so take heart!

lorax

Hang in there, Pauly! From one Gemini to another, I know that when I get all funky feeling it's because I've forgotten how to be a kid. Since you're idled, you've got the time to try this - see if you can try to find your old sense of wonder, through whatever childish means necessary. Often $5 worth of tempera paint and some old newspapers will go a very long way to banishing the blooz.

justjoan

Hang in there Paulo we are with ya!!! Next to Halloween and before Christmas my favorite day of the year is Dec 21st things just go the other way for me on that day. Longer daylight hours and I know its a small amount at first but it helps me alot!!!!!!!! I always feel I have turned the corner on another year even though in this neck of the woods there is plenty more winter to come!

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Pauly , I was just thinking of you recently.....what a year it's been.... Scot's in China, Tog checked out early, so many things at home can add up....

Chin up old boy! Things will get better.....they have to right.......right?
We could go back and review the old single malt scotch thread and start back from there!

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Gotta get things off our chest or we'd all blow up ! Just remember, human is what everybody is & the best kept secret, lol! Ya have a Lot of friends here and a Lot of them will be your friend for life, I know cause I'm one ! Besides, if the economy ever gets THAT bad, you can always move in with me - I'll be living in Bob's attic !
Or Beth's... Luv those tropics, Yes!! (did somebody faint!? lol)!
Oh, and ya don't have to be a kid for Christmas. I know cause everytime I get a new video-game, dad turns into a kid & hogs it ! Just BE a kid for Christmas anyway ! Dad always is! You're a really great guy and I'm Real glad I met ya ! Hope to meet you, and some other members here, in real life someday........
Special note: If that last sentence scares anybody, reading this post, you can always buy extra bars for the doors & windows... (gotta play fair).
May seem a little tuff to get happy sometimes. But even when I had a broken leg, I found ways to do it! Just get determined & have a Best winter & Christmas ever!

Beth, I'll grab the brushes & be right over! Hope ya have lots of walls in your house !!

sbl

Best wishes to you. I hope the holidays bring you some good news. Just do what you can to keep a positive attitude.

saltydad

I really relate, Pauly, and am starting my usual fall/winter funk. Please know that you're not alone, that there are folks who really try to understand and support you, and that we care. And before we know it, we'll be watching those new shoots coming up!

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damaclese

yes i do miss Scot we had a connection at least were plants were concerned and definitely the passing of Tog was a bit hard on every one he was often a joy just when i needed it all be OK iv had depression off and on my hole life this one is just deeper for me then normal so i thought id reach out instead of my usual tuffing it out strategy

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damaclese

thanks just the thought of new pups brings joy to me even if i never get any fruit but i have a feeling that I'm going to get some this year allot of this started when my Ae Ae started to fail its been in a slow decline for months now after growing so vigorously all summer iv never had a semi mature Plant do this before i know part of it had to do with the vicious spider mites we have you guys don't even know how bad they are here in the desert iv sprayed every 5 days for 2 months strait and still on the 6th day i find some here and there iv doubled the strength of the spray used sope in cnjunction as a surfactant iv even used Diatomasous earth still the keep coming they must have Armour and Little miny respirators they thing acts like its root bound its not drinking a hole lot of water i did try some selective root pruning to but haven't seen any results from that as yet. im so proud of the fact that my AEAE was doing so well here in the desert

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I'm not trying to push religion or anything like that, but what really makes me happy when I'm sad is praying talking to my Guardian Angel. I also think of the people who care for me and how much they love me. "If you knew how much I love you, you would cry tears of joy." Mary the Theotokos

island cassie

Paulo - thanks for telling us how you feel and if we can help in any little way - thank you for letting us in! Sometimes when things seem very bad you need to talk, and we are always here! Never forget that we care!! xx

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Count on me !Paulo
Here on the Beach you always have a friend!

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Reading this, a saying comes to mind, something about a person feeling bad or sorry for themselves because they had no shoes until they saw someone who had no feet.

Sometimes it's hard to put things in perspective.

Consider my days these past few days:

1) Friday morning after thanksgiving. Early morning notification call from Medical Examiner ex-husband's death.

2) Saturday night: discovering serious questions about professional conduct of emergency responders--in other words, this death may not have occurred if he had received prompt and appropriate attention

3) Sunday: agonizing what to do, notify deceased's sibling from out of state

4) Monday: pursue investigation (file complaint, request full autopsy , confer with deceased's sibling

5) Tuesday: another trip/call to ME office, figure out logistics and details for mortuary, burial, other services

6), 7), 8), 9), 10)

The deceased had the total sum of $1205 in savings to defray any and all costs.

One son recently returned from Iraq, working as security in NY hotel; one son displaced by this downward economy since February--savings expended.

Add in the emotions and dysfunctions wrought on the family, stir, and watch out for flying fur .

When it rains, it pours.

Someone, somewhere in a place not far away from you, a person is going through something that makes the last few days of my life seem like a walk in the park.

Buck up, be strong 'cause only the strong survives.

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damaclese

o It may not sound it but i am vary strong its just a cemical imbalance iv had all my life but i have an allergy to seratonin re uptake drugs so i cant take them any more i use to uses Buspar but that only works for 120days so thats all used up so i just have to struggle threw and iv learned to deal with it for the most part its just this winter has been a bit harder theirs many more stresses this year so I'm just reaching out to many of the people that i know well and whom i think over the last 2 years have come to know me and care about me

Im sorry for your loss and hope that you will turn to your loved ones they are the best sours of comfort a person can ask for take care pleas let me know if you need to talk

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