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Snarkie
03-23-2019, 05:33 PM
Got a call on Tuesday morning (5:32 AM) from my mom. She said she had some very sad news. I immediately assumed that my step dad had passed. Imagine my reaction when she told me my brother had killed himself.

I was in shock for the first few hours, and then it hit me. My brother and I were not close, due to living together in San Diego back in 1988 for 8 months, but we had reconnected. I feel so bad for his wife, daughter and three grand children.

When we lived together, he was such an ******* (on drugs), but we had some funny moments as well. As I am piecing together my radio show, I am trying to cover all of that. I usually air live, but I knew I would fall apart, so I am pre-recording this one. It's really hard to talk about everything, but I suppose that is part of the process.

I don't have what they call "Survivor's Guilt," but he did ask me several years back, about buying a gun for defense. Thank God, he used the rounds I recommended. Had he used FMJ, he might still be hooked up to a machine.

It's been five days, but it still hits me like a ton of bricks every now and then.

So sad. So sad. I just want to talk to him again. But it can never be. If any of you know someone who is suffering from depression, PLEASE help them.

subsonicdrone
03-23-2019, 07:24 PM
that is tough news
sorry you got it
i had a friend die recently
it is amazing how drug overdoses and suicides have lowered life expectancies
my condolences

subsonicdrone
03-23-2019, 07:32 PM
a supplier i buy plants from has Metasequoias glyptostroboides
i plan to buy one

hdynad
03-23-2019, 08:25 PM
Sorry for your families loss, will keep you in my prayers.

Darla

imclumbi
03-23-2019, 10:16 PM
Very sorry for your tragic loss. My prayers for you and your family and anyone else affected.
John

HMelendez
03-24-2019, 08:27 AM
Doug,





I'm so sorry for the sad news!.....My condolence and prayers to you and your family buddy!.....






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edwmax
03-24-2019, 05:15 PM
Doug, ... My condolence and prayers for you and family. I know this will be hard for you for a while. ....

Snarkie
03-25-2019, 02:28 PM
Thank you all so much for your wonderful and kind words. It means a lot to me. Nothing will make any of this go away, but the words of friends do certainly make it all a little easier.

The response on FB was overwhelming. I even got a text from the local radio talk host that meant the world to me.

Right now, it looks like he was on some meds that had a side effect of suicide. Great stuff to give someone who is depressed already, right?! Doc upped the meds and he lost all control. I hope my sister in law sues the shyte out of them. What kind of a company would push a product whose side effect is suicide?!

Senseless. Totally senseless.